Updates......

OMG there is still so much going on. I just started school again this week and it has been crazy so far. I have been able to mesh well so far with many of my fellow classmates so that is always nice. Chuck also started school this week, and he also went back to work. He is a little overwhelmed right now, but he definitely is doing all that he can to make sure all of his stuff is done. It is so nice for him to be home now, we have got to spend alot of time with our friends and family. Last Friday we went to the design studio for our new home and had to finalize all of our options and upgrades, as well as the appliance choices. I am happy with all of our choices so far, and cannot wait to start posting pictures of the work that is being done. It will be such a great way to celebrate and sho wyou all what is going on in our world. Chcuk has his first drill weekend this weekend and it will be nice for him to finally know who his new drill and battle's are.
I am going to be packing all weekend, and starting to get through all of Zack's crap in his room, so I will have plenty to do while Chuck is gone..... this is the one room I dread going through because I will be throwing away so many things that it makes me mad that I ever bought them for him, since he never plays with half of the crap he has......... anyway i must go for now but until next time..... cheeers!

It is finally done.....

I finished my tattoo finally, and man I love it. I cannot believe how great it came out. I am glad that my tattoo sessions are over, and I am so happy that it is healed, just in time to show it off for the summer. I think everyone has told me how pretty it really is, and I am loving it. My cruise is just under 50 days away and I cannot wait to be able to wear a bathing suit so I can show the world my new body art. And Chuck loves it as well. :) I hope you all enjoy it too.

Chuck is home, I turned 30, and our house is being built

Chuck is home, and we are very happy about that, he went back to work for Terminix yesterday and he is not very happy about it but he knows it will only be temporary if he can help it. But we have been doing so many things together it has been great... I love him being home.
This past weekend, i celebrated my 30th birthday and of course it makes me feel old, the number in front of my age change for the first time in 11 years..... but its ok, I am good with turning 30, and even though I had a fantabulous birthday weekend, I am beyond glad that it is over.. It was a very busy weekend and I had a great time, but I am very glad that it is over and I can get to other things, like moving, packing, and losing more weight.
We have to start packing for our move in May, and even though we are excited about moving and buying our new home, we are  not excited about packing and cleaning our current house. It will be an awesome accomplishment for Chuck and I to buy this house and finally have something we call our own, but we still have about 4 months before the construction will be completed on this house. But we are getting anxious. We chose all of our flooring last Friday at the Studio and we had alot of fun doing it and we love everything we picked out, we will have all tile downstairs and all carpet upstairs except in the bathrooms. it will be awesome.
That is all about that but more posts to come..... Cheers!!

It has been so long.....

I cannot believ how long it has been since I have blogged. I have been so busy since Chuck has came home I cannot keep up with my own things let alone anything else. I love that Chuck is home and we are able to do things together.. I have so much to write about and I will, just give me time.

He is Coming Home.....

Oh good heavens, Chuck finally got a date that he will be home. I am so excited, we can now start the countdown until he comes home. YAY!!!! I am very excited about this, because we are both ready for him to be home. We have so many things to do in the next few months and we want to be sure we are able to get these things done. I am also really excited for Chuck to start seeing progress with our house under construction. I love it.. Anyway he will be home around March 30th. :)

It's been a while....

Hello All, Geez it has been a while since I have been able to blog, but as usual life happens and I just have not had the time to blog in the past week or so. Anyway it has been an interesting past week and a half, Zack and I have had many days together and I got to deal with the glory of his great attitude problem, but he got his talking to and now he has been better, thank goodness. I also got my taxes done which always makes me happy when there is a return involved which is due to us this week which is even better, we will be paying off our cruise and finalizing those plans which will be great. Then I hung out with friends and family and chilled out at home. Now that Chuck is in AIT he is allowed to have his phone more and he is able to call more as well which makes me a happy girl. We have been able to talk almost everyday since he has been in AIT which has mades things alot easier on a daily basis but it has seemed like the time goes by much slower, you see before he would always call on Sundays so it would make my week go by so fast since I would look forward to Sundays all the time and now I just look forward to getting off work... however this last week I was looking forward to today.. today because my sisetr in law Tasha and my brother in law Jon, got to find out how many babies that Tasha is carrying as well as hear the heart beat for the first time... I had my phone by me the whole time I was at lunch so I could be sure to get the text, which I did get and OMG I am so excited for them and we are so excited to be able to become an Aunt and Uncle for a Julian baby. We are so happy for them, and we are hoping and praying for a happy and healthy pregancy for her.... We know Jon will take care of her so we dont have to worry about that. This is exciting news because they have been trying so hard for sometime and finally they have concieved and it is very exciting.
Anyway Chuck will be home in about 34 days, which is so exciting, right in time for my DIRTY THIRTY birthday weekend.. OMG I cannot believe that I am going to be THIRTY.... I am not scared but I am excited to leave my twenties and start a new decade in my life. I am ready for a change and lots of things happening this year and I just hope for this to be the best year yet. I am looking foraward to everything we have planned and anything that just comes up. I am especially looking forward to the week that Chuck gets to come home so we can be back to normal. :)
Well that is about all I have for now, which is all great stuff, but until next time, Cheers!!!

Valentine's Day!!!

I surely hope that everyone who has a Valentine is doing something sweet for that person. My Valentine is away in A.I.T. still in Missouri, I am going to be able to see him in April. We did have dinner together last week while I was there visiting but its not the same. Anyway I hope everyone has a great Valentine's day, I will be spending my evening tonight with Zackery and we will be having dinner and watching a movie I think.
Valetine's day can sometimes be a hassel for people but can also be the best day of the year for many couples.

Here are some fun facts about Valentine's day...........

~ Women purchase 85% of all Valentine's
~ About 1 billion Valentine's Day cards are exchanged in the US each year
~ Worldwide, over 50 million roses are given on Valentine's day each year
~ On average a man will spend about $130.00 on Valentine's cards, candy, and flowers

I hope you enjoy these fun facts!!!! Have a great day!!!

Graduation Day

Ahhh basic training is finally over for Chuck, and I traveled to Missouri to see him graduate. It has been a great trip so far, today we were able to hang out all day on and off post, and I got to meet many of Chuck's battle buddies, its nice to meet them since I hear so much about them and apparently they hear about me as well. I am back at the hotel and it was sad to say goodbye of course but I can only pray that we might be able to see each other tomorrow too. I am excited for Chuck to have finished his basic training and even more proud of him than ever, but I won't lie I am so ready for him to come home but that is still another 7 weeks away. :-(  anyway I must try to find something to read or do before I cry... Until next time, Cheers!!!!!

February is here, and so is Chucks graduation!

WOW, It has been a long time since I have written a blog. I am sorry if you have missed me, but I have been busy as a bee trying to get all prepared for Chucks upcoming graduation on February 9th, and I have all my travel arrangements in place, and I cannot wait to get on with my vacation from work, and of course seeing my hubby is always nice. I cannot wait to see him and spend some time with him. It is an early Valentine's Day gift to be able to travel and see him in a few days. We are both very excited to see each other, and he is very excited to be done with basic training and moving on to his AIT training, and at this point it is supposed to get easier, and there is supposed to be more communication with your loved ones. So Hopefully he will be able to call, email, and talk more and maybe even begin to communicate with his family too. I have been able to speak with him every weekend since he left but he has not been able to communicate with anyone else during this time. But hopefully this part will be a little easier and faster and he will be able to use his phone more often. I am sure he will be happy about that.
So January is already over and February has started, I am glad that this year is going by quickly but it just seems like it was New Years last week. Chuck and I recently were able to get approval for the house we want to buy which happens to be new construction, we are very excited for this. I want to be able to start buying new things for the house, like dishes, silverware, glasses, pots and pans, and other household items like these. I just dont know if I want to go and pick everything out without having Chuck home to help me and let me know what he thinks. I will have to think about it and see what I decide to do. I have decided one thing and that is to keep my entire downstairs neutral colors and simple. We shall see what I can find. But it will be fun and exciting to do this. Moving day for us will be at the end of May but our home will not be ready until the end of August. So we will have to stay with my mom for a few months which is fine with us, since we will be able to save alot of money by doing this, we are so greatful to have that option with her. :) It will be an interesting and fun time for those few months. Plus Cooper and Tank will become best friends again and they will bug each other I am sure. lol
Well I must go for now, but until next time, Cheers!

January is almost over....

I cannot believe that January is almost over.. I am happy that this year is going by fast and there are many things that we have happening this year it is very exciting. Well in less than two weeks I will be able to go to see Chuck in Missouri for his graduation and we will get to visit during family day and maybe the day of his graduation. I have to fly into St. Louis and then drive to Fort Leonard Wood where he is at right now, I dont mind it will be all new things for me to see but I am also kind of bummed that I wont get there super ealry so that we can spend more time together, but I dont make the flights I just book them, anyway I will be there for almost 4 days and then I will get on a plane and fly to Chicago and then to Dallas, which I am very excited about so I can visit Chucks family while I am there.. well they are my family too but you know what I mean, anyway we will be able to visit for about 3 hours at the airport, I will get to see Dad, Jon and Miss Tasha which I am so excited about.... my sister in law and I are very close and we talk almost every day which is nice to always talk to her, she is so awesome. Anyway I am ready to go and ready to have a few days off from work, it will be nice to be away from home and work. I come home on Saturday February 11th and wont get home until 11pm so I will either be so tired I will go home and pass out, or maybe I will go out for a few hours on the town and have a long night... we will see.
Things have been so great this month except for Chuck not being home, but I am getting used to it, and when he does come home we will most likely be moving out of our condo where we live now and moving into my mom's for a few months so we can save some money for the house we are buying. We just found out that we can plan on moving around early September, so we will see...... we do have Approval though so that is always exciting... I cannot wait to tell Chuck since he has not got to hear that information yet. He will be very excited. February will be an awesome month I think, it will be a short month but it is Leap Year so it will be fun to have an extra day..... I will spend Valentine's day with Zackery and I will make his favorite dinner I suppose since Chuck wont be home and we will have to celebrate Valentines day when I am there or wait until he comes home.. He is supposed to be home around or right before my birthday and OMG I will be 30 this year.... I am not so sure I am going to have a party, but what I do know is that I will have a great birthday and cannot wait. My Luv Cheryl is coming here from Claifornia to spend time with me for my Birthday, we plan to go out of course, go to the fair/rodeo and then be tourists on the strip and get a room for two nights. It will be well worth every penny and every great time and laugh we have.. I hope others will join me and her but we will see what happens with all of that. You never know!!! Anyway I must go for now, so until next time, Cheers!!

Tattoo Update....

Well I had more work done on my tattoo this past weekend and boy is it beautiful and coming along slowly. It is pretty painful this time, but I thinkthat is because as you can see those flowers are alot bigger and on my ribs... I am loving it though. I cannot wait for it to be completely done and finished so I can share many more pictures of it. So I had a pretty good weekend, getting this tattoo really did take alot out of me and made me soo tired all day on Saturday and even into Sunday, I slept most of the day on Sunday which is never good when you have laundry and things to do. But I was just too tired to get off the couch. Plus it was kind of a rough day for me, missing Chuck and wishing he was home. He did get to call yesterday which is always nice to hear from him but at the same time they only allowed them about ten minutes yesterday to call and that was the upsetting part because that is soo not enough time to talk on the phone. Anyway I have been pretty good other than all of this exciting stuff... But not much else is going on besides work and school work. I gotta run and get some of my homework done now, until next time, Cheers!!!

Think about it....

Have you ever felt like no matter what someone does or says it wont help the situation? I swear I have felt this way for some time about so many things. I just have a loss for words and actions towards people like this. I am happy with my new year so far, except Chuck being gone, but I know he will come back. :) Anyway not being able to get a grip on things that are out of your realm or even just outside of your comfort level is beyond weird and not a good feeling. I know this seems l ike I am rambling, but I just dont understand how you can change over night or how people continuously forgive things and keep moving as if it never happened, or maybe that is where I am nieve and they dont move on they hold that in and then one day the time comes and they explode. I just feel like if you cannot be open and you can live without someone or something in your life then there should not have to be this big effort to keep them in your life. Can you live a normal life without certain material things in your life? I know I can... I have done this for sometime now. I have goals, dreams and determination to get to where I want to be and to help others get to where they want to be too, but i want to be supported no matter what I do. I sometimes feel like I am lost and just getting by, and this could be possibly true because it feels so different that Chuck is not here. I like to be able to do my thing since he has been gone, but I enjoy doing my thing when he is here too.
Realizing things everyday really makes you wonder what you have done and accomplished everyday. I have started to teach myself how to meditate and clear my head of all thoughts good or bad, and it is an amazing feeling. I know this is a much needed practice by many but practiced by few. It is the most tranquil feeling I have ever had, but why is it so hard? Why do our brains decide when to turn off if you can even get them too?  I have a freind who said to me once that she wished she could come back in another life, start as an old woman, and slowly get better everyday, and go through her whole life backwards, and end up in a belly of water and that is where you slowly get smaller and smaller and no longer have any life. When she said this to me, I thought OMG why would she say this and what is so wrong with her life where she would feel as if she would want to live her life backwards? But I guess when you dont know where to begin and sometimes half way through your life you can start again or maybe you just stop and dont know where to go from there? I feel this way sometimes, and I ask myself where do I go from here? What do you want from this? I love everything about life and especially where I am today, but it is still a concious thought of what if and where would I be if I hadnt traveled this path. I wonder where tomorrow will take me, but getting to tomorrow is the truest blessing I beleive. Anyway I know this is quite alot to think about, but another reason to have a blog for myself to speak aloud and not wait for responses, just get the words out and try to make sense of them. Until next time, Cheers!

Do you ever???

Do you ever feel like you have least sight if what is important? Or feel as if you don't know if its right or wrong? Do I sound like a television commercial?? Lol
Anyway these are all questions we don't ask ourselves enough, well in my opinion. When did there become a rule that you are supposed to think of yourself last? I didn't think there was one, but what I do know is that being questioned about your role in someones life is the most confusing question ever and the craziest thing I have ever heard. But everyone is entitled to their opinion and way of thinking and it doesn't have to be the same as mine. I have always said if you don't know the role you play in somones life then maybe you shouldnt be questioning your role but be questioning who you have chosen to be in your life. Right?! I will never understand many people that are in my life and sometimes I don't even understand the reason they are in my life but the ones that you search for that reason may not deserve one and that should just be accepted as it is and move on. Oh joy the chapters continue in my book and hope yours do too, until next time, Cheers!!!!

What is your favorite color?

Haha, Did you really think I was talking about what your favorite color is? Well I guess in a sense I am. I really love colors, coloring, and finding your true colors as well as finding others true colors. It is not always fun to find these things out about people you know or people that you may know through other people, because it just throws up a wall so high you never know if one can ever get over that wall. I choose to have a tall wall, but it is a beautiful and colorful wall. I will repaint it as much as you want me too, just keep showing all of your colors to me and when you splash YOUR TRUE COLORS on it then you are just making my wall more beautiful. I have a favorite color for real.. it is PURPLE. I really love that color, and it is the color of royalty, which I would like to think that in some life I am royalty, maybe not this life but in one of them. But the moral to my blog and this story is, the more you show your true colors to people the more beautiful you make their wall or life, when someone chooses to show how they truly are it just is a constant reminder of the place that they hold inyour life or in your heart.
Have you ever thought of a color when you think of a person? Think about what color you want to be? When I think about Chuck I think about red, the color of love. When I think of Zackery and Lauren I think of Yellow its so bright and reminds me of the sun, and yellow is in your everyday life... Zack likes the color red, which tells me he is full of love and well blood too. :) Chuck loves Camoflauge and he will try and tell you that this is a color, but we all knwo it is a pattern not a color, but we will let him tell it his way. Anyway I dont know what he thinks about when he thinks of his favorite colors, but in my opinion he likes camoflauge because he likes to hunt and loves the outdoors. I would hope that when he thinks of me and a color it would be the color of love, or happiness and maybe even the color of royalty. Some of you may know my friend Julie, or as I call her Jewls.... well when I think of her I think of the rainbow and not because of the gay pride rainbow, but because she brings all of those colors to my life everyday when I talk to her and when I think of her but I think it is also because I know all of her colors and they dont change from day to day and she is always showing me all her beautiful colors. I hope this makes sense....... I must go for now but until next time, Cheers!!

Ahhh I have been thinking....

Hello All, I know it has been a few days since my last blog but as I mentioned above I have been thinking about what I could express to you all. I do love to blog and I have fun doing it, but I have had so much to say and just no time to dit. I have some good, bad, sad, and mean things to say so I wont be sharing them all. I will however let you know I am back to my usual activities since Chuck is gone again and I have been spenidng alot more time alone. I have been able to get alot of things done around the house and spend time with some friends who are not only in need but soo fun to be around. Last weekend I went to dinner on Friday with my friend Jeff from Alaska, and then Saturday I spent the day with my mom which is always nice, I even got to show her the house that Chuck and I have decided that we would like to buy! I am very excited about this process to start for the first time with Chuck and I, it is a new construction home so we will get to choose all of the upgrades and things we want done to this house. Anyway Saturday night I went to dinner with my friend and his parents, it is always nice to have PF Changs, one of my most favorte places to eat and since Chuck doe snot like Asian inspired food he never likes to go there, so after we had dinner we went to Revolver which is always a good time, Jeff and I saw lots of people and some that I knew so he got to meet some of my friends too, it was a whole lot of fun and we laughed the whole time. I had a few Carnberry and Vodka drinks and my goodness I forgot how much I liked that drink, but I guess I got tired of Cranberry juice. We danced, laughed, drank, and people watched which is always exciting. Sunday was a quiet relaxed day and I was able to get some of my homework done and all of my laundry done as well. I love my Sundays, but this past Sunday was the first one without Chuck being home and that is always hard, I cried a little, laughed a little, and anticipated his call all day long. I finally got a call around 4:30pm which was of course excellent, he is good but having a hard time going back and getting back into things around there, I try so hard to not cry when I am on the phone with him but this time I just couldnt hold it back, it was a weird day for me. Anyway by the end of the night I was ready for bed and so was Zackery. My week at work started off ok, but just extra tired this week which is never fun to pull yourself out of bed in the morning but I had to do it, and knowing I have a long weekend this weekend I am going to make it well worth it for everything this week... I am looking forward to this weekend and next Monday to have off from work and get my hair done, I cannot wait! Anyway I am going to have to go for now, until next time, Cheers!

New Year!!!

Can you believe that 2012 is already here, OMG! I never thought that it would come so quickly. I sure hope everyone had a great New Years Eve as well as hope you made some really great New Years Resoultions. Chuck and I have set many goals for the year and we consider those to be our Resolutions. We have decided that we want to buy a house and we will do what we need to do to be able to achieve this goal this year, we also want to stop eating out and stay home to cook more. We have some bad habits when it comes to that and we just rather save our money and eat at home. I am excited for this one because I am not a big eater and so when we go out to dinner it can be very wasteful for me and of course wastes money... boo hoo.

Anyway so Chuck and I were together for the past few weeks while he was home on break and it was so nice for him to be home, but now he is gone again he left yesterday and as hard as it was the first time it was way worse the second time. I have also been sick for the past week or week and a half and so I may have been a little too emotional but either way it still sucks to feel that way. Anyway it was so hard to say good bye again and he even called last night and told me it was harder this time than the last time. I am just hoping that the next few weeks go by super fast and I am hoping that it all works out for us and that I am able to go to his graduation in February. I may have to take a few days off from work and that part sucks but at the same time I dont mind taking the time off if it is for a good reason. I would take a total of 2.5 or 3 days off from work that week and travel late at night so I could spend the day with him the day prior to his graduation, but the way this is all working so far I dont have much information so it is kind of hard to make travel arrangements when I dont know what will be allowed or not. Either way we will figure it out and I will book my flights, hotel, and rental car for that time. I just hope he is allowed to leave the base and stay at a hotel with me so we dont have to worry about curfew but I dont know yet. I will soon know.... I hope. Well I have to run for now, Until next time, Cheers and Happy New Year again!!!